So I haven't blogged in quite a while. Let me start off with a big FUCK YOU.
Okay, I'm very fucking pissed off right now. I don't really want to go in to it either right now. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of everything. It seems like the harder I fucking try, the worse things get. Fuck.
I started counseling today. I really just want some magic fucking pill that will make me happy. Dammit, I fucking deserve to be happy. Why the fuck can't I be happy? It's not fair. I've done so much good in my life and I try harder to succeed than anyone else I have ever met, yet I get shit on all the fucking time. Why do other people get it so fucking easy?
I fucking hate everyone. I really do. I am trying to sit here on my own right now and I have lots of people who insist on fucking talking to me and sitting by me. I'm very much so annoyed with every single person on this earth. I really just want to be alone right now.
Ugh, I'm not making any sense. Oh fucking well.
I can't wait until tonight is over with cause I'm not doing shit this weekend. I'm not leaving my apartment and I don't want any visitors. Actually, I can think of only one person in this world that I would see and wish he would come over, but that's not going to happen. It never is and it fucking kills me. Why the fuck did I have to fall for him? I'm stupid. It was supposed to be just for fun and I wasn't supposed to get attached. So then why did I? Okay, I'm going to stop talking about him now.
Actually, I'm just going to stop talking altogether now.
kfuckingbye
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Area 51!!
Yeah I'm going there today.
Anyways, I haven't posted in a couple days. For one, I didn't feel like it, and two, I didn't quite have the time.
Uh, nothing's new really. My Thanksgiving was awesome. I slept all day. It was great. Then I went to work.
I was off Friday. Kat and I went down to Etcetera for a while and she chased a little boy who was close to her age around. It was cute. She was doing her "zombie" walk trying to catch him and give him a hug. She's such a sweetheart! Anyways, she started to get a little cranky so we came home cause it was about her bedtime. She went to sleep and I followed her not long after.
Saturday we didn't do much. Sat around the apartment and watched a movie. Dropped her off at her dad's and came home to do laundry and shit. Then met up with Julie and her friend Adam at Casa Mexicana where we sat around and chatted for a while. Came home and finished up some laundry. Then we headed down to Etcetera and hung out some more down there. Sam joined in as well and it was great seeing her. Then they all left and I just hung out on my laptop and listened to music until it was closing time. Then I decided to leave, so I get to my car and my stupid keypad wouldn't work to unlock it and unfortunately my keys were inside the car (dumb, I know). So finally after getting pissed and pushing all the buttons a million times like a crazy person, the window roll down button worked and I got to reach in and unlock it. I will now be carrying an extra set of keys outside of my car with me at all times. I was like freaking out cause all of my work uniforms and shit were in it cause I had just done laundry. So yeah, went to work and blah, did some work.
Now I'm at home. Getting ready to hit up a shower then off to sleep until it's time to wake up and go to my friend Johnna's sons' birthday party. Going to Area 51 to play some video games and eat some pizza and cake. It's going to be awesome. Then I have to go kick some ass in roller derby, since I kind of wasn't there last week. Then shower again and off to work I go again.
So those are my plans...I'm going to go smoke now before I hop in the shower.
kbye
Anyways, I haven't posted in a couple days. For one, I didn't feel like it, and two, I didn't quite have the time.
Uh, nothing's new really. My Thanksgiving was awesome. I slept all day. It was great. Then I went to work.
I was off Friday. Kat and I went down to Etcetera for a while and she chased a little boy who was close to her age around. It was cute. She was doing her "zombie" walk trying to catch him and give him a hug. She's such a sweetheart! Anyways, she started to get a little cranky so we came home cause it was about her bedtime. She went to sleep and I followed her not long after.
Saturday we didn't do much. Sat around the apartment and watched a movie. Dropped her off at her dad's and came home to do laundry and shit. Then met up with Julie and her friend Adam at Casa Mexicana where we sat around and chatted for a while. Came home and finished up some laundry. Then we headed down to Etcetera and hung out some more down there. Sam joined in as well and it was great seeing her. Then they all left and I just hung out on my laptop and listened to music until it was closing time. Then I decided to leave, so I get to my car and my stupid keypad wouldn't work to unlock it and unfortunately my keys were inside the car (dumb, I know). So finally after getting pissed and pushing all the buttons a million times like a crazy person, the window roll down button worked and I got to reach in and unlock it. I will now be carrying an extra set of keys outside of my car with me at all times. I was like freaking out cause all of my work uniforms and shit were in it cause I had just done laundry. So yeah, went to work and blah, did some work.
Now I'm at home. Getting ready to hit up a shower then off to sleep until it's time to wake up and go to my friend Johnna's sons' birthday party. Going to Area 51 to play some video games and eat some pizza and cake. It's going to be awesome. Then I have to go kick some ass in roller derby, since I kind of wasn't there last week. Then shower again and off to work I go again.
So those are my plans...I'm going to go smoke now before I hop in the shower.
kbye
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Hark Knock Life
Gah, I'm not in a bad mood, but I'm just very apathetic right now.
Do you ever feel like you do too much? I do. I feel like there's a lot on my plate right now and I'm thinking of adding more by getting a second job. It won't be so bad for the first month cause I won't have class after two and a half more weeks. I'm just tired, exhausted. I don't really ever get enough sleep. And when I do have the time to sleep, I either have something that needs done or I just can't fall asleep.
Working midnights is getting old. I love the pay and the people I work with (for the most part), but I'm so ready to work a shift where I can sleep a full night. Plus I'm tired of not having a routine for Katherine's bedtime. I want to be there with her at night and read her bedtime stories. I want to tuck her in and kiss her goodnight and wish her sweet dreams. It's very heartbreaking to not be able to do this.
I'm just kind of rambling. I feel like I'm in a weird mood.
We were supposed to have a roller derby team meeting tonight at 7. I was also spending time with Julie cause we haven't spent much time together this past week or so. So I only got to see her for like 45 minutes then left to go to Etcetera. I get down there and no one is there. I was pissed. I know that you can't call me, but it's been that way for a while and I told them to post stuff like that on the yahoo group. Well no one did. So not only did I waste gas driving all the way to the other side of town, I passed up some quality time with my best friend. Ugh.
Things between Ricky and me are going great. I couldn't ask for a sweeter guy. He's really something awesome. I'm excited!
Oh, so my camera is fixed, but unfortunately they sent it to my old address (it's what is on my license) so I'll have to get it from Hooper. I really really want my camera dammit!
Ummm..
I think I'm going to go fix myself some food.
kbye
Do you ever feel like you do too much? I do. I feel like there's a lot on my plate right now and I'm thinking of adding more by getting a second job. It won't be so bad for the first month cause I won't have class after two and a half more weeks. I'm just tired, exhausted. I don't really ever get enough sleep. And when I do have the time to sleep, I either have something that needs done or I just can't fall asleep.
Working midnights is getting old. I love the pay and the people I work with (for the most part), but I'm so ready to work a shift where I can sleep a full night. Plus I'm tired of not having a routine for Katherine's bedtime. I want to be there with her at night and read her bedtime stories. I want to tuck her in and kiss her goodnight and wish her sweet dreams. It's very heartbreaking to not be able to do this.
I'm just kind of rambling. I feel like I'm in a weird mood.
We were supposed to have a roller derby team meeting tonight at 7. I was also spending time with Julie cause we haven't spent much time together this past week or so. So I only got to see her for like 45 minutes then left to go to Etcetera. I get down there and no one is there. I was pissed. I know that you can't call me, but it's been that way for a while and I told them to post stuff like that on the yahoo group. Well no one did. So not only did I waste gas driving all the way to the other side of town, I passed up some quality time with my best friend. Ugh.
Things between Ricky and me are going great. I couldn't ask for a sweeter guy. He's really something awesome. I'm excited!
Oh, so my camera is fixed, but unfortunately they sent it to my old address (it's what is on my license) so I'll have to get it from Hooper. I really really want my camera dammit!
Ummm..
I think I'm going to go fix myself some food.
kbye
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
I Hate Naming Blogs
Yeah, I'm horrible with naming my blogs.
Anyways, I'm back in town as of yesterday. I had quite a bit of fun down at the Deer Festival. I didn't do anything Friday night cause I ended up sleeping. Shocking, I know. Saturday I went to the parade and ran into so many people that I haven't seen in a long time. It was so cold so as soon as the parade was over, Kat and I went up to my grandma's house to raid the fridge, lol. Then my grandparents watched Kat so I could go to my friend Jesse's house. It was hilarious. As soon as I got there he told me that his step sister Meghan (who happens to be on the derby team too) was coming. So we went up to his room for a while and played guitar cause we're awesome like that. Then we went downstairs so I could smoke and so we could see Meghan. She was like, "You're at my dad's house." It was pretty funny. Anyways, so we conversed for a while, during which her dad was telling us how much we're fucked in the world and that life sucks, lol. He was slightly drunk. Anyways, so after Meghan left, Jesse and I went back upstairs to play video games. We played Halo 2 which I completely suck at, but it was fun. That's basically all we did the rest of the time. I really miss hanging out with him. He's such an awesome dude.
So after hanging out there for a while, I went back to my grandma's house and went to bed, lol. Kat and I woke up the next morning and I made us some pancakes. They were delicious. Then everyone else went to church and Kat and I stayed there and watched tv. Then we left at like a little before 1.
So that's how my trip was. It was fun. Not really eventful, but that's good. I just wanted some time to relax and I got it.
I missed practice last night btw. Ricky and I decided to stay in all night. It was nice. I got more sleep. The way I figure, with as much sleep as I got this weekend, I'm set for this week, lol.
Well I'm going to go back to watching some ninja turtles with Kat.
kbye
Anyways, I'm back in town as of yesterday. I had quite a bit of fun down at the Deer Festival. I didn't do anything Friday night cause I ended up sleeping. Shocking, I know. Saturday I went to the parade and ran into so many people that I haven't seen in a long time. It was so cold so as soon as the parade was over, Kat and I went up to my grandma's house to raid the fridge, lol. Then my grandparents watched Kat so I could go to my friend Jesse's house. It was hilarious. As soon as I got there he told me that his step sister Meghan (who happens to be on the derby team too) was coming. So we went up to his room for a while and played guitar cause we're awesome like that. Then we went downstairs so I could smoke and so we could see Meghan. She was like, "You're at my dad's house." It was pretty funny. Anyways, so we conversed for a while, during which her dad was telling us how much we're fucked in the world and that life sucks, lol. He was slightly drunk. Anyways, so after Meghan left, Jesse and I went back upstairs to play video games. We played Halo 2 which I completely suck at, but it was fun. That's basically all we did the rest of the time. I really miss hanging out with him. He's such an awesome dude.
So after hanging out there for a while, I went back to my grandma's house and went to bed, lol. Kat and I woke up the next morning and I made us some pancakes. They were delicious. Then everyone else went to church and Kat and I stayed there and watched tv. Then we left at like a little before 1.
So that's how my trip was. It was fun. Not really eventful, but that's good. I just wanted some time to relax and I got it.
I missed practice last night btw. Ricky and I decided to stay in all night. It was nice. I got more sleep. The way I figure, with as much sleep as I got this weekend, I'm set for this week, lol.
Well I'm going to go back to watching some ninja turtles with Kat.
kbye
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I Finished My Paper!!!!1
Yeah, it's true. I only wish I would have done it in the beginning so I wouldn't have had to do it all in one night. But whatever, I'm a procrastinator. It's like six pages long and full of awesomeness. I just have to fix the format cause my stupid work doesn't have Word and then email it to myself and print it out somewhere. But yeah, I'm glad it's done. Now all I have to do is prepare my presentation that has to be 5 minutes long :|
So, I only have one more day left until I can get out of this town. I'm excited. I need to get ahold of some peeps so I can see them. I really need this I think.
Yesterday was a bad day. I was out of cigarettes all day and I was just in a horrible mood. It sucked. I didn't go to the derby fundraiser cause I was in such a horrible mood. I feel really bad about it now cause I should have sucked it up and went for the good of the team. But I think to myself and can only remember one other fundraiser I've missed and that was cause I had just got cut open that same day. So I think I'm doing alright. We're having a league meeting next week and I haven't decided if I want to run for the board. I would really like to but I'm not sure if I'll have time for it.
Speaking of which, I'm thinking about getting a part time job waitressing or something. Something that would only be like two-three nights a week for about maybe 3-4 hours a night. I just want something that I can make tips on so I can have some spare cash for things. Not sure if I should take that on or not though cause next semester in school is going to be pretty full. I just don't want my schoolwork to get behind. Although if it ended up falling behind, I could always just quit that job.
Yeah, well I don't have any more updates really. I'm kind of hungry so I'm going to go make Kat and me some breakfast.
kbye
So, I only have one more day left until I can get out of this town. I'm excited. I need to get ahold of some peeps so I can see them. I really need this I think.
Yesterday was a bad day. I was out of cigarettes all day and I was just in a horrible mood. It sucked. I didn't go to the derby fundraiser cause I was in such a horrible mood. I feel really bad about it now cause I should have sucked it up and went for the good of the team. But I think to myself and can only remember one other fundraiser I've missed and that was cause I had just got cut open that same day. So I think I'm doing alright. We're having a league meeting next week and I haven't decided if I want to run for the board. I would really like to but I'm not sure if I'll have time for it.
Speaking of which, I'm thinking about getting a part time job waitressing or something. Something that would only be like two-three nights a week for about maybe 3-4 hours a night. I just want something that I can make tips on so I can have some spare cash for things. Not sure if I should take that on or not though cause next semester in school is going to be pretty full. I just don't want my schoolwork to get behind. Although if it ended up falling behind, I could always just quit that job.
Yeah, well I don't have any more updates really. I'm kind of hungry so I'm going to go make Kat and me some breakfast.
kbye
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
=]
I'm happy. Life is pretty awesome. This is such a change for me, but I've decided to not stress about things like monetary issues or whatever happened to me in the past. Yes, it still haunts me from time to time and it hurts quite horribly, but for the most part, I'm not going to let it get me down. I want to be happy and I'm making that happen.
I mean I have a lot going for me. I'm doing pretty well in school, got a secure job w/ good benefits, have the most amazing child in the world, and I'm a freaking bad ass on skates. Not to mention this really cute guy I'm definitely digging. I've got the most amazing best friend too! She's in my thoughts cause her ferret Zombie died yesterday. RIP Zombie!
So that's been me lately. I've been happy and I'm hoping it will stay this way for a long time. I think I deserve to be happy for a long period of time for once in my life.
So I'm hitting up Golconda Friday. I should be arriving sometime during the day. Not sure what time cause I think Ricky and I are going to hang out before I leave since I'll be gone most of the weekend. But anyways, I think I will try to go to this show Friday night in Christopher, IL. My good ole friend Billy Ozee is playing and I would like to make it to one of his shows. So I might try to round up some people or just see if Chris H. wants to go up there with me since we're supposed to be hanging out. Then Saturday is the parade. It's my chance to see everyone that I left behind. It'll be nice. I hope I get to see my best friend Jesse and my husband Sam (inside joke). Ah, I just can't wait to see everyone! I'm excited if you can't tell. Anyways, then Sunday I'm just going to hang out with la familia. It's been a while and maybe I can convince my grandma to make something delicious for lunch before I leave that day. Maybe some sopapias (sp?) or something.
So yeah, I'm also going to try to make time, if it's not too cold, to visit mom's gravesite. It's been a few months so I'd really like to spend some time out there. I might just go out there w/o Kat since it's probably going to be quite chilly. I'm sure someone in my family won't mind watching her for a few minutes for that.
The only thing I'm worried about is running into my dad. I always stress about this everytime I go down. Especially since Kat and I will be walking around the festival. I really don't want him to ever get to meet her. He's not deserving of that.
Ugh, enough negativity. I'm sure everything will be fine. Plus, if I do see him, I can just punch him in the face and put my cigarette out in his eye. That'll put me in a good mood =]
Okay, well that's about it.
kbye
I mean I have a lot going for me. I'm doing pretty well in school, got a secure job w/ good benefits, have the most amazing child in the world, and I'm a freaking bad ass on skates. Not to mention this really cute guy I'm definitely digging. I've got the most amazing best friend too! She's in my thoughts cause her ferret Zombie died yesterday. RIP Zombie!
So that's been me lately. I've been happy and I'm hoping it will stay this way for a long time. I think I deserve to be happy for a long period of time for once in my life.
So I'm hitting up Golconda Friday. I should be arriving sometime during the day. Not sure what time cause I think Ricky and I are going to hang out before I leave since I'll be gone most of the weekend. But anyways, I think I will try to go to this show Friday night in Christopher, IL. My good ole friend Billy Ozee is playing and I would like to make it to one of his shows. So I might try to round up some people or just see if Chris H. wants to go up there with me since we're supposed to be hanging out. Then Saturday is the parade. It's my chance to see everyone that I left behind. It'll be nice. I hope I get to see my best friend Jesse and my husband Sam (inside joke). Ah, I just can't wait to see everyone! I'm excited if you can't tell. Anyways, then Sunday I'm just going to hang out with la familia. It's been a while and maybe I can convince my grandma to make something delicious for lunch before I leave that day. Maybe some sopapias (sp?) or something.
So yeah, I'm also going to try to make time, if it's not too cold, to visit mom's gravesite. It's been a few months so I'd really like to spend some time out there. I might just go out there w/o Kat since it's probably going to be quite chilly. I'm sure someone in my family won't mind watching her for a few minutes for that.
The only thing I'm worried about is running into my dad. I always stress about this everytime I go down. Especially since Kat and I will be walking around the festival. I really don't want him to ever get to meet her. He's not deserving of that.
Ugh, enough negativity. I'm sure everything will be fine. Plus, if I do see him, I can just punch him in the face and put my cigarette out in his eye. That'll put me in a good mood =]
Okay, well that's about it.
kbye
Monday, November 17, 2008
Attention People:
Please stop watching me while I work.
I don't come to your place of employment and just stare at you while you work, so please don't do this to me.
I'm going to stab my mop through your left eye.
That's all.
kbye!
P.S. I'm really happy cause I've met an amazingly awesome guy!
I don't come to your place of employment and just stare at you while you work, so please don't do this to me.
I'm going to stab my mop through your left eye.
That's all.
kbye!
P.S. I'm really happy cause I've met an amazingly awesome guy!
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Eeek!
Okay so I'm excited and ready to skate! I'm so ready to kick some ass! It's been too long!
That's all.
kbye
That's all.
kbye
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Last Night
Okay so last night was quite amazing. I hung out with Julie and Mary at Etcetera for a few hours until they left to go do something or another. But we had a lot of fun. Played some Ziggity, drank some organic soda, and ate some nasty dried fruit.
Then Ricky got off work and he and I headed out since Etc was closing up. We were going to go to Steak N Shake, but they were extremely packed so we went to his house. I picked us out a movie to watch (The Crow <3) and then I ended up falling asleep not even halfway through it. It was so awesome though. Everything about being there with him last night just felt right. It was really nice to just lay there with him cuddling. And omg he smells so good. I could smell him on my shirt today. I didn't want to change shirts, lol, but I kind of had to. So anyways, we woke up and he introduced me to his father and then went down to Etc to get some caffeine and my car. It was so sad that he had to go to work. I wish I could have spent the whole day with him. I get to see him tomorrow morning though! But thinking about getting to see him is probably going to make tonight at work go by really slow :(
Speaking of tomorrow. We're having a scrimmage against one of Memphis' roller derby teams. I'm really excited, considering I have skated competitively since the beginning of August. I feel pretty confident about tomorrow though. We're going to have 13 skating chicks and it's going to be bad ass. Too bad we couldn't have had that many for our bouts.
Well I guess that's about it for now. I'm really tired and dread working tonight. I also feel it is extremely cold outside and I hate it. So yeah, I'm going to get dressed then go to work.
kbye
Then Ricky got off work and he and I headed out since Etc was closing up. We were going to go to Steak N Shake, but they were extremely packed so we went to his house. I picked us out a movie to watch (The Crow <3) and then I ended up falling asleep not even halfway through it. It was so awesome though. Everything about being there with him last night just felt right. It was really nice to just lay there with him cuddling. And omg he smells so good. I could smell him on my shirt today. I didn't want to change shirts, lol, but I kind of had to. So anyways, we woke up and he introduced me to his father and then went down to Etc to get some caffeine and my car. It was so sad that he had to go to work. I wish I could have spent the whole day with him. I get to see him tomorrow morning though! But thinking about getting to see him is probably going to make tonight at work go by really slow :(
Speaking of tomorrow. We're having a scrimmage against one of Memphis' roller derby teams. I'm really excited, considering I have skated competitively since the beginning of August. I feel pretty confident about tomorrow though. We're going to have 13 skating chicks and it's going to be bad ass. Too bad we couldn't have had that many for our bouts.
Well I guess that's about it for now. I'm really tired and dread working tonight. I also feel it is extremely cold outside and I hate it. So yeah, I'm going to get dressed then go to work.
kbye
Friday, November 14, 2008
Tonight
Okay so I cannot wait until tonight.
But I'm going to explain what my day today will be like first. Um, I really need to get some cleaning done. I'm so tired, but I've got a Rockstar to drink and I'm pretty sure I just won't sleep today. So after cleaning some and after Kat wakes up from her first nap, we've got some errands to run. Damn bills taking all my money. Then I think I'll hit up Etcetera for a minute. Maybe get a bagel or something. Then come back home. Then Kat and I are just going to chill around the house until about 6:00 or so and head back down to Etc to see Julie. I can't wait to hang out with Julie! Then at 7:00 I'm going to drop Kat off at her father's so I can have the night off, cause I have plans. With someone who's really awesome! More details to come later!
So that's going to be my day. I hope today is a really good day. I think it will be.
Anyways so last night I spent probably half of the night talking to this new nurse. He's a pretty cool guy, even though he was kind of mean to me and made fun of my map. I drew him a map explaining where Wing Stop is and I thought it looked good, but he apparently did not. Gah, men. So yeah, he was good company at work.
Um, I've got a charlie horse.
Anyways, I can't wait until Sunday morning. We're having a scrimmage against a team from Memphis. I hope we kick their butts! I'm so excited to finally be skating against other people. If y'all didn't know I had a hernia back in August and had to have surgery. I'm so glad that I'm finally back to contact skating and I really don't think I've degressed any. I'm just so badass!
Well, I guess that's about it for now.
kbye
But I'm going to explain what my day today will be like first. Um, I really need to get some cleaning done. I'm so tired, but I've got a Rockstar to drink and I'm pretty sure I just won't sleep today. So after cleaning some and after Kat wakes up from her first nap, we've got some errands to run. Damn bills taking all my money. Then I think I'll hit up Etcetera for a minute. Maybe get a bagel or something. Then come back home. Then Kat and I are just going to chill around the house until about 6:00 or so and head back down to Etc to see Julie. I can't wait to hang out with Julie! Then at 7:00 I'm going to drop Kat off at her father's so I can have the night off, cause I have plans. With someone who's really awesome! More details to come later!
So that's going to be my day. I hope today is a really good day. I think it will be.
Anyways so last night I spent probably half of the night talking to this new nurse. He's a pretty cool guy, even though he was kind of mean to me and made fun of my map. I drew him a map explaining where Wing Stop is and I thought it looked good, but he apparently did not. Gah, men. So yeah, he was good company at work.
Um, I've got a charlie horse.
Anyways, I can't wait until Sunday morning. We're having a scrimmage against a team from Memphis. I hope we kick their butts! I'm so excited to finally be skating against other people. If y'all didn't know I had a hernia back in August and had to have surgery. I'm so glad that I'm finally back to contact skating and I really don't think I've degressed any. I'm just so badass!
Well, I guess that's about it for now.
kbye
Thursday, November 13, 2008
That BITCH!
Ugh, so my freaking charge nurse wrote me up last night. She said I don't make myself busy enough. What the fuck does she know? She sits on her fat ass all night long barking orders at people! I can't stand her. I run circles around everyone there and I'm so fucking sorry that I finish my work in half the time the rest of the PSAs do. Oh and not to mention I do twice the work they do. It frustrates me to no end.
Anyways, so yesterday was a good day until she fucking came up to me and made me sign some damn sheet. I was in tears and it took everything in me not to pop her one in the kisser. How dare she ruin my day!
Blah whatever. She's a bitch, what else can I say?
Today shouldn't be too bad. I have a test this afternoon and I should probably study, but most likely won't until a half hour before we take it. I do, however, need to write a three page essay for some bonus points. I also really need to get my book for my book report, considering I have a week until it's due.
Fuck, I procrastinate too much.
Yeah so I still have not slept yet. I think I'm about to go lie down with the babes. She's seeming kind of tired. I would watch the series finale of Six Feet Under but the fucking dvd won't play in my dvd player. Grr. I mean, it's not like I haven't seen it before. I just like to finish what I start. Sometimes.
Yeah, so sleep time.
kbye
Anyways, so yesterday was a good day until she fucking came up to me and made me sign some damn sheet. I was in tears and it took everything in me not to pop her one in the kisser. How dare she ruin my day!
Blah whatever. She's a bitch, what else can I say?
Today shouldn't be too bad. I have a test this afternoon and I should probably study, but most likely won't until a half hour before we take it. I do, however, need to write a three page essay for some bonus points. I also really need to get my book for my book report, considering I have a week until it's due.
Fuck, I procrastinate too much.
Yeah so I still have not slept yet. I think I'm about to go lie down with the babes. She's seeming kind of tired. I would watch the series finale of Six Feet Under but the fucking dvd won't play in my dvd player. Grr. I mean, it's not like I haven't seen it before. I just like to finish what I start. Sometimes.
Yeah, so sleep time.
kbye
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
<3 Julie
Okay so I just had the most fun I've had like all year. I have the best girlfriend ever. Her name is Julie. She's so amazingly awesome and totally the hottest person I know. So we went to the mall and she got a rainbow air freshener to match the one I have. While we were at Hot Topic we saw some earrings that we're going to get for each other. One set says best friends and the other is a zipper. It's going to be so awesome wearing them.
Anyways, so then we went to Wing Stop and had lots of fun. We laughed so hard we started crying. Watch out for those Eskimo Gnomes! And meth addicts.
I swear I have so much fun with Julie. She understands me completely and we're so much alike. Crazy! Literally, we are. And it's cool cause we have each other for support.
So yeah, my night was awesome. I still haven't slept, but I'm not sleepy. I'll probably be chugging coffee tonight at work though. Well I'm going to go talk to Julie some more.
kbye
Anyways, so then we went to Wing Stop and had lots of fun. We laughed so hard we started crying. Watch out for those Eskimo Gnomes! And meth addicts.
I swear I have so much fun with Julie. She understands me completely and we're so much alike. Crazy! Literally, we are. And it's cool cause we have each other for support.
So yeah, my night was awesome. I still haven't slept, but I'm not sleepy. I'll probably be chugging coffee tonight at work though. Well I'm going to go talk to Julie some more.
kbye
Ugh Boredom...
So I haven't slept today. I work midnights and I decided I wouldn't sleep during the day and will hopefully be able to get some before I go in to work. I just had a large caramel latte though, so not sure when I'll be crashing. Anyways it was awesome cause I didn't even have to get out to get a latte. Home delivery by an awesome person. Good company for a while.
Now Katherine is napping and I'm about to take a shower cause I'm nastilicious right now. Here in just a little bit I'll be taking Kat's jumperoo and selling it to a lady who needs it a lot more than us. I'm so happy to get ready of that thing finally. It just takes us space and Kat never even really liked it. She's one of those babies who doesn't like to be stationary. She loves moving around and exploring. She gets in to practically everything. She's so cute!
Anywho, pointless rambling. Today's been a good day. I've made it a point to make it good cause a few years (5) ago it was a bad day. Well this morning at work I told myself to not be sad and mopy today. I told myself it was going to be a good day. And you know what? It has been. I've not gotten upset or frustrated or anything like that today. And I haven't cried since like last week. It's like a record for me.
I believe it was actually Friday when I cried last. That was the six year anniversary of my mother's death. I had reason to cry. It just sucked cause I had to work and I was in an ER and I just kept getting flashbacks and I would spontaneously break out in tears. It was rough. But I got through it.
Well I really need to get off of here and shower so I can be ready by 4:30 to meet that lady.
kbye
Now Katherine is napping and I'm about to take a shower cause I'm nastilicious right now. Here in just a little bit I'll be taking Kat's jumperoo and selling it to a lady who needs it a lot more than us. I'm so happy to get ready of that thing finally. It just takes us space and Kat never even really liked it. She's one of those babies who doesn't like to be stationary. She loves moving around and exploring. She gets in to practically everything. She's so cute!
Anywho, pointless rambling. Today's been a good day. I've made it a point to make it good cause a few years (5) ago it was a bad day. Well this morning at work I told myself to not be sad and mopy today. I told myself it was going to be a good day. And you know what? It has been. I've not gotten upset or frustrated or anything like that today. And I haven't cried since like last week. It's like a record for me.
I believe it was actually Friday when I cried last. That was the six year anniversary of my mother's death. I had reason to cry. It just sucked cause I had to work and I was in an ER and I just kept getting flashbacks and I would spontaneously break out in tears. It was rough. But I got through it.
Well I really need to get off of here and shower so I can be ready by 4:30 to meet that lady.
kbye
First Timer
So I'm pretty much a first time blogger. I've done some myspace ones but nothing special. I'll start off by introducing myself.
I'm Jaleesa. I live in Western Kentucky but grew up in Southern Illinois. I'm 20. I have a baby girl named Katherine who is just about 16 months old. She's pretty much the most awesome person in the world. I do roller derby. My derby name is Valanthe Nai'lo. It's elvin for Valarie Nightbreeze (from my one and only D&D character. R.I.P!). It's an amazing sport. If you don't know what roller derby is or if you would like to check out our team go here: www.myspace.com/pcrg. Anyways, I'm in school as well. My original plan has been to go for Sonography, but lately I've been contemplating switching to Nursing. There is so much more I could do in Nursing and I think it would be well worth the one extra semester of school. Oh and I also work at a hospital already. I clean and do other types of duties in an ER. It's pretty exciting and fast paced and I love it (well not so much the cleaning part, which you'll actually see me bitch about quite often).
Anyways, those are the main hobbies I have. Back in the day I used to play the trumpet. Still have it, but never get it out and play anymore. I still kick ass at it though. I have a bass guitar, but I don't know how to play that. I can read tabs, but that's cheating.
I guess I can let you in on some of the people closest to me. I've got my bff Julie. She's so amazing and understands me. Then I've got all of my roller derby girls. I love them to death and don't know where I'd be today without them. I've got some family. I don't have parents and you'll come to find out why if I decide to make a post about it. It's kind of deep and depressing and very very personal, so that might not happen. I don't have a significant other at the moment. I've kind of given up on trying to get into a serious relationships. The past year has just been heartbreak after heartbreak, so I'm holding off until it just happens. No more searching for love, you know? Besides, with how busy my life is, it would be very difficult trying to juggle in someone special. And not to mention, it would have to be someone good enough to be around my daughter, considering she's the most important thing in my life.
Okay, so there you have it. That's me in a nut shell. Ugh, I don't know why I used that saying. I really don't even know what it means, lol. Like I get what it's trying to say, I just don't understand why it is worded the way it is.
KBye!
I'm Jaleesa. I live in Western Kentucky but grew up in Southern Illinois. I'm 20. I have a baby girl named Katherine who is just about 16 months old. She's pretty much the most awesome person in the world. I do roller derby. My derby name is Valanthe Nai'lo. It's elvin for Valarie Nightbreeze (from my one and only D&D character. R.I.P!). It's an amazing sport. If you don't know what roller derby is or if you would like to check out our team go here: www.myspace.com/pcrg. Anyways, I'm in school as well. My original plan has been to go for Sonography, but lately I've been contemplating switching to Nursing. There is so much more I could do in Nursing and I think it would be well worth the one extra semester of school. Oh and I also work at a hospital already. I clean and do other types of duties in an ER. It's pretty exciting and fast paced and I love it (well not so much the cleaning part, which you'll actually see me bitch about quite often).
Anyways, those are the main hobbies I have. Back in the day I used to play the trumpet. Still have it, but never get it out and play anymore. I still kick ass at it though. I have a bass guitar, but I don't know how to play that. I can read tabs, but that's cheating.
I guess I can let you in on some of the people closest to me. I've got my bff Julie. She's so amazing and understands me. Then I've got all of my roller derby girls. I love them to death and don't know where I'd be today without them. I've got some family. I don't have parents and you'll come to find out why if I decide to make a post about it. It's kind of deep and depressing and very very personal, so that might not happen. I don't have a significant other at the moment. I've kind of given up on trying to get into a serious relationships. The past year has just been heartbreak after heartbreak, so I'm holding off until it just happens. No more searching for love, you know? Besides, with how busy my life is, it would be very difficult trying to juggle in someone special. And not to mention, it would have to be someone good enough to be around my daughter, considering she's the most important thing in my life.
Okay, so there you have it. That's me in a nut shell. Ugh, I don't know why I used that saying. I really don't even know what it means, lol. Like I get what it's trying to say, I just don't understand why it is worded the way it is.
KBye!
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