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I'm happy. Life is pretty awesome. This is such a change for me, but I've decided to not stress about things like monetary issues or whatever happened to me in the past. Yes, it still haunts me from time to time and it hurts quite horribly, but for the most part, I'm not going to let it get me down. I want to be happy and I'm making that happen.

I mean I have a lot going for me. I'm doing pretty well in school, got a secure job w/ good benefits, have the most amazing child in the world, and I'm a freaking bad ass on skates. Not to mention this really cute guy I'm definitely digging. I've got the most amazing best friend too! She's in my thoughts cause her ferret Zombie died yesterday. RIP Zombie!

So that's been me lately. I've been happy and I'm hoping it will stay this way for a long time. I think I deserve to be happy for a long period of time for once in my life.

So I'm hitting up Golconda Friday. I should be arriving sometime during the day. Not sure what time cause I think Ricky and I are going to hang out before I leave since I'll be gone most of the weekend. But anyways, I think I will try to go to this show Friday night in Christopher, IL. My good ole friend Billy Ozee is playing and I would like to make it to one of his shows. So I might try to round up some people or just see if Chris H. wants to go up there with me since we're supposed to be hanging out. Then Saturday is the parade. It's my chance to see everyone that I left behind. It'll be nice. I hope I get to see my best friend Jesse and my husband Sam (inside joke). Ah, I just can't wait to see everyone! I'm excited if you can't tell. Anyways, then Sunday I'm just going to hang out with la familia. It's been a while and maybe I can convince my grandma to make something delicious for lunch before I leave that day. Maybe some sopapias (sp?) or something.

So yeah, I'm also going to try to make time, if it's not too cold, to visit mom's gravesite. It's been a few months so I'd really like to spend some time out there. I might just go out there w/o Kat since it's probably going to be quite chilly. I'm sure someone in my family won't mind watching her for a few minutes for that.

The only thing I'm worried about is running into my dad. I always stress about this everytime I go down. Especially since Kat and I will be walking around the festival. I really don't want him to ever get to meet her. He's not deserving of that.

Ugh, enough negativity. I'm sure everything will be fine. Plus, if I do see him, I can just punch him in the face and put my cigarette out in his eye. That'll put me in a good mood =]

Okay, well that's about it.

kbye